This week it feels like I have got very little done. I’ve mainly been crocheting, playing Destiny 2, and working on my current novel.
Well, I say working. It’s mostly been staring at it, writing one new sentance, deleting that sentence, adding a word or two to an existing sentence, deleting those words and then reading the same fucking paragraph yet again. Everything I do to improve it just makes the next bit harder. I’ve now reached an impasse where I can’t transition from the scene I’m working on to the next scene because the ways I’ve changed this scene mean that the existing transition no longer makes sense.
As regular readers will remember my mother broke both arms and as a result has had a shoulder replacement. She’s now recovering and undergoing rehabilitation in a different hospital even further north. I’ve been crocheting a poncho for her as she’s having difficulty with sleeves. The first poncho should be finished tonight and I’ll post it tomorrow. Then I’ll have to find the money for the yarn to make some more. I was able to use some chunky yarn that I already had for the first poncho but I want to make her something really nice and that means more expensive yarn. Any donations made via my Ko-Fi link this week will go towards buying nice yarn.
I did get a post out this week on the subject of Destiny 2 and I have continued to play it. I’m sure I’ll stop having quite so much fun with it at some point but not yet.
My slow preparation for the Brexit stockpile continues. I’ve found a source of instant ramen noodles that are tasty and cheap. I’ll have to build up a stock of ingredients to go in the noodles though. We’ll need to add vegetables of some kind to ensure something approaching a balanced diet and maybe some source of protein. I’d love to make my own Kimchee to add to the noodles in the Korean style but I’m not sure that I can afford the home fermentation kit necessary and I don’t want to invest in something that I might not be organized enough to use.
You’re maybe thinking that it doesn’t sound like I’ve done much this week and wondering what else I’ve done with my time. Have you seen the news? I have and as a result I’ve spent most of this week seething. It’s hard to read the news without experiencing a horrible sense of panic and deja vu. Britain plunges on towards a cliff edge marked Brexit and the US discovers that the Republican party has completely forgotten what the Supreme Court is supposed to be (hint: impartial for one thing).
In my life I’ve had to learn over and over again that the world is not fair, that the rules that apply to me don’t apply to people with more money. power or status than me. People with less money, power or status than me face far stricter punishments for breaking those rules and have to deal with extra rules that I won’t even know about unless I make an effort to seek out their narratives and learn from them. Obstacles that I deal with every single day are invisible to the people who don’t have to deal with them.
I believe that our problems are fixable but we all have to admit that they exist in order to fix them. How is that going to happen as long as the people with the money and the power and the status have so little incentive to do anything about it?
What I’m trying to say is that I have no faith in the the government in either the US or here in the UK. The ‘due process’ that they are so fond of talking about is not some impartial system of justice. It exists to serve the interests of those in power. The people in power used to pretend to fear consequences but it was always largely optional and now they don’t even pretend. There may be nothing that we, the ordinary people, can do to ensure that our governments actually follow our will but at least we can try. If we don’t try we will regret it in the days to come.